Saturday, January 31, 2009

Scrapping the Music

Did a fun layout FINALLY for Scrapping the Music blog. I've been looking at this blog forever and finally got around to do a layout...

No News is good news?

No news on grandma-that will come next week. I'm praying, hoping, crossing my fingers, but amazingly I'm rather calm..

I'm back at my apartment for the weekend getting things together. I spent last night with my friends drinking, eating pizza, and doing a little card making. It was so good to just get out and do something different!

I'm somewhere in the middle between sadness and happiness for the moment. The lever is going each way as the days go by...

Saturday, January 24, 2009

I did it...

I wrote the email to end internship with all that's going on in my life..

My grandma came home from the ER and they did x-rays. They told her to go see her doctor on Monday for the results. This has me worried for the fact that when my mom was diagnosed with cancer they had her go to her doctor to give her the news. I need to be with my grandma on Monday so she has someone to lean on if there is bad news. My mom is recently disabled and gets around in a wheelchair (thus one of my reasoning for not going to graduation as discussed at our meeting). My grandma is 84 and started to have signs of dimension/ Alzheimer's and grandpa is 94 and not all there. I feel like if I continue my internship my attention will not be fully focused on where it needs to be. This of course could be worse depending on what happens on Monday at grandma's doctor.

Even if it is something minor I feel that both my grandparents can no longer take care of my mom for extended periods of time. They might make it a week or so, but I can't come home every weekend without being exhausted going back on Sunday night and going to school on Monday to teach. So I think my best interest would be to withdrawal or drop the internship.

I am not sure if this is possible but I'm wondering if UCF would let me do my internship in the county where my mom lives as I know at our internship meeting they said they placed interns in over 30 counties. Who do you think I should contact in order to find out that information? I don't expect to start the internship now upon moving in the next few months, but rather in August of this year. I know it pushes back graduation and completing my degree, but if I'm there in Orlando and something happens to my family I don't think I could forgive myself especially since I know will have no more time to miss.

Sunday, January 18, 2009


A good day indeed because I don't have to go to work (well internship) tomorrow! Ya!
I love MLK! He fought for what he believed in for one thing (most importantly) and secondly the USA decided to honor him in a way that everyone should look at as they enjoy their day off tomorrow, well those that have it off.

I love that fact that MLK day is falling the day before such an historic election of Barrack Obama. It's almost as though we celebrate MLK's dream.


"I have a dream that my four little children will one day live in a nation where they will not be judged by the color of their skin but by the content of their character."

And I realized that my own life wouldn't count for much unless I was able to ensure that you had every opportunity for happiness and fulfillment in yours. In the end, girls, that's why I ran for President: because of what I want for you and for every child in this nation.

I want all our children to go to schools worthy of their potential-schools that challenge them, inspire them, and instill in them a sense of wonder about the world around them. I want them to have the chance to go to college-even if their parents aren't rich. And I want them to get good jobs: jobs that pay well and give them benefits like health care, jobs that let them spend time with their own kids and retire with dignity.

On Thursday as the teacher I am interning with read a book about MLK I realized just how lucky the children in this classroom are. It was amazing to see their reactions when the teacher told them about Jim Crow laws, and segregated schools when she was in school in the county. The students didn't realize the impact MLK made on so many lives, I hope that Barrack Obama will leave a lasting impression on the lives of children like those that are in this class. I still remember sitting in 3rd grade and watching as Bill Clinton was inaugurated. I was in shock and awe as I watched the pomp and pageantry. Now years later I have the honor of telling my future children I watched the first African American President be sworn into office and I can say I had the right and honor to vote for him. Being a history buff I see things becoming full circle..

It's just amazing to see history in action!

Friday, January 16, 2009

I made it thru my first week of internship. Well it was only 4 days and I haven't started the teaching, but lets look on the positive side..

Sadly I am soooo very tired. Yesterday I got home at 4:30 and I laid down to take a nap at 6:30. next time i woke up it was 9:45 and turned around. then at 11 something maggie wanted out for a potty break. came back in and went back to sleep and slept till 9 this morning... Man I guess I needed some sleep huh?

weekends will be for sleeping I assume.

tomorrow I get to hang with my SISTAS and scrap the day away!

Wednesday, January 14, 2009


My friend Shelia gave me a Creative Blogger.

4) Heather - God love her, always positive, love her cards and layouts.

So sweet and so awesome of her--totally made my day. Though I think I'm losing my positive feelings lately.

I'd like to pass this on to a few people as well.

1.) First if Arleen had a blog, you'd get this. You are an incredible card maker and I love your layouts to.

2.) Suzanne, who's blog you can visit here

3.) Frankie

4.) Jessica

Monday, January 12, 2009

Today starts internship! I'm nervous. I didn't sleep well last night and only got a few hours of sleep. I think I was up almost every hour and I was so warm... Let's hope it goes well. I think I'll need a nap when I get home!

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Loving this song...

Have to turn off my music, but listen to this song.. I love it!
Today was such a nice way to spend a day..
Shopping, Coloring, and best of all being with a great friend!

Suzanne and I went into Mount Dora today to go to a stamp store. Of course I found like a million things I wanted including a new spellbinder die! If only I had tomorrow off to play... Then we found out that they had had a class using copic markers. We had missed it but the awesome lady (Pam) that was working at Stamping Station said she'd make a special class for us and we learned all about the copic markers. Even though I've had a few experiences with these amazing markers I didn't know half of what you could do.. We had such a great time playing and coloring! I bought a blender pen that I can't wai to play with.

We made 2 cards as well, will have to scan them later, for now I need to go chill out a bit with the pup!

Thursday, January 8, 2009

WOW what an emotional roller coaster it's been this week..
Leaving on Tuesday morning amidst tears between grandma,mom, and myself.
Getting back to Orlando and the quiet that has become my apartment.
Feeling a bit of loneliness the first night after spending almost a month with people all over!
And then today finally having a weight off my shoulders in finding out my placement for Internship 2. Still a bit of nervousness in waiting to find out what grade I will be teaching. Little relived to find out my coordinator will only be observing me twice and that my supervising teacher will be doing much of the observing. Today they talked about grad school at our internship meeting, the thought seems so out there, heck I just went to get the Bachelors behind me. Though I found a program thru UCF that I think I really like as I was looking around. It's in St.Pete so I wouldn't have to drive to Tampa (TG!!!). Going to think about it. It also doesn't look like I have to have a GRE score for it either. (woooo hooo).. It's a mix of 34hrs of literacy and leadership. We will see, won't be jumping in right away, probably going to wait a bit and get comfy within my classroom before doing it, but it seems so oh I don't know... Like I'm actually going to be a teacher... There is an end to this long windy road...

Here's a page from my Mary Engelbright day to day calendar, today's little quote and picture was perfect to go along with the internship meeting, and in the end it worked out well..

now I am off to the grocery store to get some grub and what not for dinner. Amazing how I forgot like everything I needed yesterday at Target and still managed to spend a ton... well you know the new pillow racked up the bill.. LOL!!!

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Happy 94th!

My Opa turned 94 today! He's amazingly still driving and getting around! A Stubborn German for sure!!!

Saturday, January 3, 2009

This was pup at the vet today... They drugged her silly, but less than last year..

She has been so loopy today, getting up following me around, not wanting to go outside, she did manage to eat a little bit of chicken broth that I put over her kibble but not much else, hardly drank any water, and now just completely out, so sleepy and she looks miserable.. Hope she is feeling better tomorrow..

We are headed out to lunch to celebrate my grandpa's 94th birthday..

I'm starting to get this pit in my stomach as the time comes closer to where I have to leave and go back to Orlando. It's a bunch of nerves in leaving home again, worrying about my mom, worrying about my grandparents helping my mom out, and then thinking about internship as well...

This getting up numerous times during the night, worrying about things, and general overall feeling of cruddy-ness is starting to make me sick... I have a headache almost every night, and an upset stomach as well and I feel soooooooooo nauseated throughout the day. Today my hips started aching along with knees. Probably from lifting mom, but I'm sure it will go away. I'm just hoping the hip pain goes away soon because it's a pain in the butt literaly! LOL!

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Pages from the MMFY Crop last night!